Today was a long day. Sometimes it feels that way. The ponies were fed along with the chickens and the other critters.
The above reminds me of how one minute we can be cool and collected and the next we're raging. It happens. The idea here is to think why and what causes our outrage or emotional turmoil. Always an adventure when one starts looking in.
Remember, have some mercy for yourself as you have for others. That's the way to understanding. Time to go to sleep.
Sometimes it is good to take a breather. I don't know if I believe in vacations. Why would you go on a vacation if you are living according to your way of life? I don't know. Maybe you want to explore or whatever. I enjoy my way of life so, exploring is good, I'll admit, once in a while.
Everyday is an exploration day at the Ranch. You explore thoughts, feelings, emotions, occurrences, situations. There's never a dull moment. The mind is a universe in itself.
Today I ended up taking a nap on this bluff. So, I didn't explore much. Maybe my mind was done working out.
A part of the day was tough. One of our ponies joined the big herd in the sky. It is never easy. It doesn't get easier. I did explore the feelings associated with loss.
Grief. What is grief. A hole. A darkness. An emptiness. Who knows. We all know it don't feel right. Best to keep quiet when others are grieving instead of some dumb ass comment. That's all I got on that.
Day 2 is done.
Day one of this blog anyway. Life at the Ranch is lived in moments. Days are defined by the good old sun rising and setting however, there's no real name necessary in some cases. Monday? Tuesday? It don't matter. Sure, I notice the end of the month but the reality is I'm here to live the ranch life one moment at a time. Breathe.
This morning already was a day. There was misunderstandings, tardiness and some conflict. Bread and butter for us. Growing requires friction, interaction, evaluation and some thinking. Emotions and feelings are part of the equation and I do spend a bit of time on that. Breathe.
As Lisa and I were discussing a bit ago, emotion and feelings are a necessity to know today. The thought is that in this new environment where everyone's opinions count, social media tells the story and we might be accosted by a stranger for not using proper road etiquette leads to a survivalist initiative: Learn about feelings or pay the consequences.
Avoiding feelings is not an option. Probably never was. The thought is that at one point, is not that feelings were not important. They were. They just wasn't used as cheap currency as they are now. Our society is using feelings to pay for everything and so, as smart humans, we better learn what that means in order to thrive in this jungle.
This is another way to learn how to fight. Really. Since the moment you are born, you are in for the fight for your life. End of story. So, get good at it. Learning about feelings is one aspect of it. It will guide where and how you do what you do.
Start with yourself. Ask simple questions. Why am I upset? Is it a common occurrence? Could I do something different?
Once you question yourself. Don't stop. It don't mean, you're in doubt. It means you are learning about who you are. If you think you know who you are then, you should be able to answer honestly. You will not. You will make excuses. Learn to fight or get punch in the nuts, up to you. Ladies, you're not exempt from the punch. Probably worse for you as you tend to be more in tune with those feelers and emoblowtions. Ya, I made that up. #emoblowtions
Lesson One on how to live on a Ranch: Learn how to fight. Get in the ring. Be prepare to live in your jungle.
1. Ask yourself questions. Start simple, Genius.
2. Feelings. Explore them.
3. Apply what you learn and be willing to fuck up. Always. You'll learn faster. You know it is true as humiliating as it might had been in your head.
That's it for today. That's all I can do. I'm happy I'm on my way. Right. What does this have to do with Ranch Life. Everything. You fail on this, you will pay dearly. You know so.
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